really enjoyed this—and the gentle, unfurling path from feeling excited by the early hours, to Duras, to feeling disenchanted and a bit desperate in the middle of the night
love these final lines too: “To not sleep is to feel outside of life. It puts me at war with myself.”
3 am is the woooorst time to wake up. And I feel like you immediately know you’re screwed when you look at the clock and see a 3. I hope you’re able to find other ways to rest and that you get some bonafide sleep soon.
3:00 was always my own "witching sleepless hour", and seems to be the norm of many others I know. I went to college at night. Came home around 10:00 and did homework, going to bed after a nightly scotch and cigarette (yes -- a treat to myself) around 2:00. Got up at 7 to get to work. Swore I only needed 4 hours sleep. I struggled for years. After COVID -- something happened. No idea what or why. Age? At 71 there is little in life that scares me...Love the reference to life with out sleep is life without your shadow....
really enjoyed this—and the gentle, unfurling path from feeling excited by the early hours, to Duras, to feeling disenchanted and a bit desperate in the middle of the night
love these final lines too: “To not sleep is to feel outside of life. It puts me at war with myself.”
Thank you so much, Celine!
3 am is the woooorst time to wake up. And I feel like you immediately know you’re screwed when you look at the clock and see a 3. I hope you’re able to find other ways to rest and that you get some bonafide sleep soon.
Thanks Cat! 🤍
3:00 was always my own "witching sleepless hour", and seems to be the norm of many others I know. I went to college at night. Came home around 10:00 and did homework, going to bed after a nightly scotch and cigarette (yes -- a treat to myself) around 2:00. Got up at 7 to get to work. Swore I only needed 4 hours sleep. I struggled for years. After COVID -- something happened. No idea what or why. Age? At 71 there is little in life that scares me...Love the reference to life with out sleep is life without your shadow....